I Think it's Time for a Change...

I believe I need a new hobby, possibly a new approach toward life. My inability to successfully accomplish various intentions in society has left me somewhat unmotivated. Once inspired and almost egotistical, I was able to conquer most obstacles put in front of me. I believe this was the period in which I felt the best about who I was. Currently, I am almost trying to redefine who I am. I would enjoy some reinforcement, or possibly some encouragement from some friends or people I care strongly about. Although I believe I need some improvement on my approach toward life, I respect who I am because I cannot be changed completely.

A lot has changed in the last year or so. I am currently employed, participating in more responsible actions in society. My knowledge of more intricate ideas has expanded as well. I would definitely agree with the process of growing up. I have lost many philosophies or ideals in this, yet I am completely content with what was given up. I believe I needed some more individuality, rather than being told how I should personally direct my life. Unfortunately, pessimism surrounds me and I can not really escape this. I would like to gain a lot of my confidence back, but I believe that will be a working progress. Then again, it is quite difficult to improve this due to the amount of negativity directed at me and from me. I believe I have some rethinking to do, which will hopefully allow me to explore life in a more positive manner. After looking upon the recent period in my life, I have noticed various sides to me in which I did not know existed, or possibly had lost. Never really cautious in my actions, I have now realized how that can negatively affect many. After much recogniton, I feel that one day this can be pretty much eliminated. For now though, I will try to focus on myself, and find what actually makes me happy and makes me feel valued. Possibly some people I had once cared about deeply will be pushed away, but I feel that is almost completely necessary. I think it's time for a change...